Wow! Feels so good to use my real voice again! I missed you! How ARE you today?????
For those of you that might be new to this blog, thanks for coming! Those of you that know me and love me anyway, thanks for staying and it may be time for a check-up from your mental health professional. (heh, heh. No, seriously.)
So, this week is important because: I’m out here on my own. Finally. After a 21-year big-box gym career, push actually came to shove. The worm turned. Hell and high water arrived–all at the same time. I’m sure if I stayed up late enough I could come up with a couple more fun euphemisms, but I digress…..suffice it to say, the Big Box and I have parted ways–for good. (please someone, remind me that I wrote this when I start looking back with rose-colored glasses……)
Maybe some of you out there are familiar with this place. Maybe you’ve been laid off, “released”, between jobs, finding yourself, or just plain screwing around. Maybe you were able to march into your boss’s office and say (with the karaoke machine twanging in the background) “Take this job and shove it!” In any case, I wonder if you’ve felt these things that I’m feeling? They include but are not limited to: Excited. Relieved. A little scared. Happy. Terrified. Wonderful. Encouraged. Guilty. Grateful. Exhausted. Hungry.
That last one is the only feeling that is easy to address. Even then, I’m not too terribly sure that peanut M&M’s are truly the BEST way to combat a fair bit of stress, but now that I’m a studio owner, I have my very own free membership with weights and mats and everything. I probably should use them this week sometime.
Me. An Owner. Of a studio. We’ve been open for 2 weeks and it still has not fully sunk in. I tear up a little each time I go in there if you want to know the truth. Today was no exception as my sweet friend Roseanne came to practice with me this sunny Sunday afternoon. (Thanks, Roseanne for being my lone student and donating generously!)
So, those of you that have travelled this path before, how have you handled all the pesky feelings? And, not just YOUR feelings—your partners feelings, your kids feelings, especially when they have to switch preschools because you are no longer getting an employee discount? The money stress…..the “how are we going to ever make it” discussions? Seriously fun, people. I highly recommend it.
Here’s the thing, though. After everything, I am so completely over the moon about this project and having the freedom to really go to town on it that I almost can’t stand myself. There is no better place in the world than trying to find the key to serving a person who has trusted you with an hour of her life and helping him to feel awesome afterward. Or at least better than he did when she walked in the door. And then, after she comes to a couple of classes, meeting ANOTHER person who is feeling awesome (because, it IS after all, YOGA) and making a new friend. And looking forward to seeing that friend each week in a room that creates a lot of awesome. That is what we will all become. Tomorrow. And I will make a million dollars and then I will no longer need an employee discount anywhere.
Here’s what truly gets me. And, after 21 years of serving and connecting others and following someone else’s rules, I get to do it in the way I choose, serving the clients I most want to serve, with the staff I hand-picked for the job. Nothing is more thrilling.
So, getting back to reality, I fully expect the awesomeness to transpire—by way of serious levels of service and spontaneous connection. It is already happening in small scale. This is about building a unique and amazing community one Wobbler at a time. The million dollars? Who knows…..that will be up to the universe.
In the meanwhile, I will be content to practice my craft, work my ass off to get my company on the map, and hope, pray, and be grateful for any and all support I receive in whatever form it comes packaged. I will also learn to love beans and rice. A LOT.
Come to our classes, Wobblers. Let’s see what we can build together. Our schedule is at http://www.embracethewobble.com. We’re in Robbinsdale, MN. 4180 W. Broadway Suite C. (In the basement) Donation month lasts through May, and we’d love to see you and get to know you. I would also like to be able to afford to eat meat again, sometime in my life. :)
One last thought. Hug your supporters today. Especially your partners. It’s so hard when your partner makes a life-changing decision and you are not in the driver’s seat. Partners have the hardest job. I’m committed to making sure my partner’s support is not given in vain. Help me keep that promise.
Love you guys! Wobble in and Wobble on!